Missing

Conversations:

Hanne: Hay...I dunno, Brian. For one...I'd prolly be the saHanne if I'm a wife and that’s why I don’t want to be one.
Hanne: I'm too praning...women are like that.
Brian: Well…
Hanne: And that's also one reason why I don’t wanna fall for anyone, worthy or unworthy (susHanne) chances are I'd go nuts with worry.
Brian: Can't people have relationships without any strings attached?
Hanne: They can. There are also no feelings involved.
Brian: Like friends na madikit lang?
Hanne: Pwede...pero un nga... love is the most selfish of all emotions.
Brian: That I have to agree with.
Hanne: it is...

Penny: Why have 2 phones? You're an SE person and I'm a Samsung person.
Hanne: It's like having boyfriends. You keep one for your loyalty and you have another one to show off.

Hernan: Honestly though, don’t you miss being able to feel that about and say that to someone?
Hanne: I do and I still wanna end up with someone. Pero unless I'm 100% sure that that person deserves such...then wag nalang. Half baked feelings and loyalty ain't for me.
Hernan: Oh well dreaming about it is as far as I’m going at the moment.
Hanne: See...
Hanne: I dont think anyone would make me commit at the moment.

Honestly though, I miss having that someone Hernani's referring to. Unfortunately, i haven't gotten over the fact that men do cheat however much they love you. I should know, I've found myself on the other end of the fence several times. And sometimes, it go way past the physical, that's the scary bit of it. When it happens, it never goes. The pain remains. And the cheating continues. Unfortunately, though I won't blame my fear on karma, I am aware that such things happen and I'm just not willing to put myself in that position. Maybe not yet.

I'm still hoping though that one day, that guy who'd choose me would come...and I won't be able to say no to him at all.