Saturday, August 02, 2008

Some Things Just Don't Change

The past 48 hours proved to be more than challenging. It was fantastically enigmatic. I'm just drawn into every detail. Crap, I'm just tired.

Had dinner with the boys the other night and yesterday's shift I was juggling several issues at work. Penny dropped by work at 5 in the morning to play catch-up. I went to Ortigas after shift and had another set of breakfast with Abel (subsidized by me hmf). At 9am I went straight to TP to process my backpay and got home around noon.

Tonight I got greeted by issues left and right. Work just seemed like a big, corporate jungle all of a sudden instead of the boring ho-hum place where I earn my keep. I have a splitting headache and later I'd have to head out to meet some people.

During the length of my daily cab ride I realized that some things just won't change.

1. Early morning traffic vs rains- it never goes away, Especially along Katipunan where all the Atenistas and the Marians are waiting patiently inside their cars. La Salle Greenhills ain't any different. And all road within and around the CBD? Ugh, hellish gridlock. Noe I remember why I love working at night and why I never enjoyed driving to UP way back college. I hate Ateneo every morning especially when I have a 7am class at AS. Since it's also raining, everything just became waaaaaaaaay complicated.

2. Backpay vs New Pay - no one makes it easy. Getting your backpay is way harder than getting a job. Really. Sometimes you'd rather not go through the effort and forget your old company still owes you your last salary and other adjustments just because of all the hassle they'd put you through. But because I needed the money I gave them a taste of my rendition of an irate customer who's ready to sue. Suddenly, my lost clearance showed, my last pay was computed, my 2008 ITR was ready and I've my check ready to be signed off to me, it's rightful owner. And lemme tell you, it's well worth it. Hays, pagdating sa pera, TP can never go wrong. And my current pay...ahhhhh, well worth the migraine I have now. Of course, it can get better

3. Boys vs Girls - My dinner with the guys as always shifted between work, computers, games and money. It doesn't help being the sorta alpha female of the group. Not because of anything else but because my guy friends needs a good spaking once in a while just to get them going. Imagine our trips out of town when I had to literally drag each and every single of their fat ass off of the bed. Horrendous. I plan the trips, I buy the tickets, I detail the itin, I make the reservations, I do everything. Mikey even joked that time would come that I'd be earning millions a month but I'd still be li'l Hanne making the reservations, calling them, waking them for dinner dates and updating everyone what's up with everything. Hays, glorified alalay. Ate. Nanay. PA.

4. Work vs Work - It's hard work not to have work. Pretending you're busy when you're not. Trying hard to look and feel productive when you've done nothing the entire day but surf. On the other hand, having real work is equally as hard. So I've been asking myself the past 2 days, which do I actually prefer? Hays...a good balance between the two should do me good. I think.

Friday, August 01, 2008

Maybe Cedi Was Right o_O


You are The Empress

Beauty, happiness, pleasure, success, luxury, dissipation.

The Empress is associated with Venus, the feminine planet, so it represents, beauty, charm, pleasure, luxury, and delight. You may be good at home decorating, art or anything to do with making things beautiful.

The Empress is a creator, be it creation of life, of romance, of art or business. While the Magician is the primal spark, the idea made real, and the High Priestess is the one who gives the idea a form, the Empress is the womb where it gestates and grows till it is ready to be born. This is why her symbol is Venus, goddess of beautiful things as well as love. Even so, the Empress is more Demeter, goddess of abundance, then sensual Venus. She is the giver of Earthly gifts, yet at the same time, she can, in anger withhold, as Demeter did when her daughter, Persephone, was kidnapped. In fury and grief, she kept the Earth barren till her child was returned to her.

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Panic

It's creeping in. I am worried. My anxiety is picking up.  Please