I Say...

you normally don't use the word "great"...

I know I don't...or maybe you just don't know me...Also, I'm not normal, and so are you. We're two very different people who are far from being normal. Normal people can carry conversations that both parties can understand. Unlike us, we just don't understand each other.

heeheehee! ya trying to tell me something?

I've been trying to tell you something for the longest time. And for months I've been trying my damnest to make you understand everything. Seems like you stop being smart when you think it'll b favorable to act stupid. And that's what you've been doing all along. Acting awfully stupid.

never what? what's that supposed to mean?

I'm never gonna think that you'll ever understand me or that I'll ever understand you. Never would I dream that one day we'll have the luxury to be together in complete silence. Never would I imagine that you'll eventually trust me the way I wanted you to trust me. Never.

and what is that thought provoking sentence?

Why do always need to know what I meant vs what I said? Why do you always need to be certain of what I wanted vs what I make you believe I wanted? Why do you always asks me questions when you can't answer any of mine?

so who's the devil?

It was you. You we're right. But lemme redeem myself.

err...yeah, you could be the devil who dragged me to hell, but since when have you been kind enough to bring me heaven?

Never. You'd never be the man who'll bring me heaven as I want it. But I see a lot of possibilities. Endless possibilities and probabilities as you've put it...only, it's almost impossible right now.

we don't have enough feathers to carry each other...lest we suffer the fate of Icarus...

Then why act surprised when I told you I thought you don't want to push for it? You said it yourself. You said it...You made it clear. We'll burn our waxen wings if we push further, nearer to the blinding heat of the sun, we'll burn. We're no phoenix and yes we'll suffer. With that image in my mind I thought everything has been said and a decision has been reached. I was wrong, I forgot we can never understand each other.

I don't believe that. I am unbreakable.

No, you're not unbreakable. No one is. You've ben broken before. You may have hidden the pieces so carefully but you've suffered and you've fallen apart in the past. If not why are you in hiding? Why always watching, ready to flee at any sign of danger? No. you're not unbreakable, you've been broken before.