See Me

There's a somebody I'm longing to see

I hope that she turns out to be

Someone to watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood

I know I could always be good

To one who'll watch over me

Insanely I said no to all of your queries, I just want to be left alone. I am not interested in the dream you want to share with nor am I willing to take part. I am not a monster for telling you off, rather I just want you to look further, beyond where I stand and maybe you'd see the one whom you've always wanted. A love given freely is wonderful but love that can't be returned is just wrong and unfair. I can not and will not force myself to love you, and that you should accept. Please listen and believe me when I say NO.

Some day, when I'm awfully low,
When the world is cold,
I will feel a glow just thinking of you...
And the way you look tonight.

The tiny hairs at the back of my neck would rise with every look you'd push my way. Your glance would smother me with inifnite heat. I feel like Icarus who'd turn into ashes as you come closer. And your passion consumes me to my soul. Alas, you're all that and more, but not enough. I seek more than what you can give, I seek more than the physical and the mental. I seek not you, but someone else. However tempting it is to stay within the casts of your smoldering eyes, I have to leave and bid you goodbye.

I'm coming out of makeup, The light's already burning;

Not long until the cameras will start turning.

And the early morning madness,

And the magic in the making,

Yes, everthing's as if we never said goodbye

I wish for the familiar, the soul that I saw long before I knew who it was. I long for someone who can see past my skin and who could undress me with a single look of knowing. I wish for someone who'd see and appreciate my bareness when all that's left is me and the skeleton of the person that I know is me. I wish fot that person who was with me even before everything started to be.

Heaven I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek

me: you're just not that into me...and that's fine
you: no...
you: i just don't want to hurt you...
you: i want you, but don't wanna ruin you...
you: us..
me: and you can't ruin something that you're not holding huh?
me: i understand perfectly. only thing that i can't explain is why we're still around each other.
you: let's just say i'm buying time...
you: because like i said...
you: i want you...

and this is how it'll be for as long as it takes...and time is something we both don't have...now or tomorrow